Journey
The building of this website, starting in 2023 and continuing with 2024, has been therapeutic. It has helped me transition from a person with uncontrollable anxiety, a first for me ever in my life. Over 50, and my body and mind were out of my control at times. There was significant confusion and wonderment of my existence in the past, present, and future.
The diagnosis is much deeper than a single term. Or a phrase of terms.
It was an attack on the body, mind, and spirit.
External influences. External events. Internal doubts. Internal events. Internal reaction, productive and non-productive. The depth cannot possibly be captured here on a page. Childhood impacts by family. Loss of family of recent through death and pushed out of a relationship. Dreams were derailed.
The universe has a reason for this. I accept. It is going to take the rest of my life to attempt unraveling. There is no expectation of completeness. I suspect it is a moving target.
I have embedded my appreciation of friends' help in my efforts to return to self-living and gain some understanding where possible.
With love and appreciation.
Hans Dickel
May 5, 2024
The diagnosis is much deeper than a single term. Or a phrase of terms.
It was an attack on the body, mind, and spirit.
External influences. External events. Internal doubts. Internal events. Internal reaction, productive and non-productive. The depth cannot possibly be captured here on a page. Childhood impacts by family. Loss of family of recent through death and pushed out of a relationship. Dreams were derailed.
The universe has a reason for this. I accept. It is going to take the rest of my life to attempt unraveling. There is no expectation of completeness. I suspect it is a moving target.
I have embedded my appreciation of friends' help in my efforts to return to self-living and gain some understanding where possible.
With love and appreciation.
Hans Dickel
May 5, 2024